i need to let you know
i died once
i know you will not believe me
i do not believe it myself
but
in one moment
i had a secret death wish
in the next moment it disappeared
i now have a life ahead of me
i do not want it to end
i once treaded water
in a sea of despair
i now sail a boat
in a sea of infinite sadness
i may not move some days
but
as long as i stay afloat i am alive
i may never move but in circles
at least there is a chance
there is hope
i died once
i know what it is like
i can wait a lifetime for it